DISEASE OF THE HEART

Europeans were stupefied,
left in awe of the beauty
and horrified
when they encountered
what looked to them
like heaven and hell
in the totally different world
of our many civilizations

Our civilizations that were
in most ways vastly superior
to the European homelands

Europeans broke into our
Anahuac world: as thieves
swords drawn, greed in their eyes
carrying in their souls
poorly disguised barbarisms,
conveniently hidden perversions,
theological aberrations,
and as they said, explained to us,
"we have a disease of the heart
that can only be cured by gold"

Europeans had the advantage of
horse, canon, armor, sword
and the mastery of lies

and the secret weapon of the smallpox

weapon of mass destruction

which would eventually kill 95% of our population,

23 million would be killed by Europeans

in Mexico and "Central America",

and then another 10 million would be killed

in what is now called Canada and the United States of America.

We had the disadvantage of
civilized expectations our of these Europeans.

They saw opportunity for exploitation
slaves, wealth
and glories beyond imagination.

They only need to kill and enslave the legitimate

owners of this continent.

We had no idea
of the size of the genocide,
cultural castration and
the theft
that we were about to encounter

They justified their crimes
by bogusly claiming that Christ
and civilization were on their side
They pointed to and exaggerated human sacrifices
and our Anahuac Creator and claimed
that our Anahuac Creator was the devil,
the devil in the multiple disguises
that we adored as Our Creator
They claimed our visions of the Creator were
abominations that their God

Jesus and Mary
could not endure
and as the reason for
the European's guilt-free genocide
and theft that soon began

They said that domination under a European master
would bring the semblance
of the man-god, Christ, into our lives
It brought unlimited wealth
into their European lives
an exchange sanctioned
by their heaven and
their blood-lusting Christ
They did not understand the world
that they had entered,

entered as murdering trespassers
and thieves, obsessed
with gold and wealth

Before they came,
Ometeotl, Our Creator, was our obsession
Every breath and our total existence
was dedicated to honoring,
understanding, and repaying Ometeotl
for having given life to us

We had no concept of wealth
or private ownership
or any understanding that land
could be owned by individuals

We had our cities of ten, fifty and
350 thousand people
in the high plateaus
and the low jungles
Cities with paved streets,
night lighting, street maintenance
the world's first
universal mandatory education,
universities, libraries, and
all were matching
or surpassing
the best of European civilization

We bathed daily. Europeans never
bathed in all their lives
in those days.

We honored Ometeotl.
They honored themselves,
while pretending to honor their man-God.
We found obsessive
devotion to beauty
in flowers,
birds,
song and poetry
They were obsessed with wealth

To us, Ometeotl was all
Wealth was to be given away
There was no devil,
no evil in nature,
only in man

We sacrificed our lives
for the love of Ometeotl and our people

We learned from Europeans
the monstrous possibilities
that the evil of man was capable of
We learned it all too well, too late
We live it all too well, today